Go and buy yourself some manners.
You act like you’re the boss, but you’re really not. As matter of fact you’re the youngest among us. You’re an arrogant, selfish, spoiled brat! I don’t know where did you learn your manners. You don’t know how to listen to older people’s advice, it’s as if you already know everything. You shout at everyone including your parents, you don’t know how to respect them. Where’s your manners? You only care for yourself and don’t consider the feelings and needs of others. You always want everything to be spoon fed. You’re such a spoiled brat who doesn’t know how to stand on his own feet. It’s a shame that you came from private schools yet you don’t showcase good manners. You’re so naive. Grow up! Act your age not you’re shoe size.
There are some things that is told bluntly yet it’s as sharp as newly sharpened knife towards the other end.
Emotions took over me
Watching the Royal Wedding makes me want to get married. I’m gonna be Kate Middleton someday and I’ll have my own Prince William of Wales.
I don’t know what just happened. I was crying excessively and I was hurting myself all because of a dog. I don’t know if that’s what you call nervous break down but it seems like it. I didn’t intend to do that. I didn’t intend to react so dramatic but it just happened. Emotions took over me. I know I’m all over the place right now. I’m not making any sense, but this is just the way it’s gonna be. I’m not thinking clearly.
It was a crazy night. Mom was teasing me and Kash (the dog) on how awful she smells. I really can’t remember the exact words that flew out of my mouth. All I know is that those words made Mom so angry. I said sorry, I even cried while saying it, but she’s as hard as a rock. I was saying sorry, literally kneeling in front of her, begging for her forgiveness but it doesn’t seem to work. My apologies were sincere. It came from the bottom of my heart but it didn’t seem to cross that way. Next thing I knew everybody was involve in the petty fight. Everybody was shouting. I understand no more. The kneeling and begging became more dramatic. I was literally scratching, punching and slapping myself for what I’ve done all because for an innocent dog. I can’t understand why I did that to myself. Maybe I wanted attention or maybe I just wanted forgiveness from Mom. I didn’t mean those words, it was supposed to be a joke. I was saying sorry over and over. Crying till I can’t breath. I can’t see clearly because of the tears. And all I can think of is “what had just happened?”
Now it is over. Kash will be away form us, from me. I still don’t know whether Mom forgave me. I don’t know what to do tomorrow. I’m confused. It was chaos. I hate myself for being so emotional. It’s just that I have a lot of things in my mind. Now I’m scared of being jobless, I’m scared of staying in the house and going back to my old life, being a bum. I’m scared as a lost child. I want to go out. Clear my head. Have a breathe of fresh air. Stroll the streets alone. Be alone and be at peace.
I thought my life was going smooth until today I realized it was so fucked up! I’m a loser, a disgrace and a useless human being.
shit naka sando!
Kahit anong suot, kahit wala make-up maganda pa din siya! She’s my #1 girl crush! hahaha